to the chain fence of ebebezer church
Thursday, October 8, 2009
dreams with you in it
to the chain fence of ebebezer church
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
cameras in action stay in action
two weeks.
what happens to a myspace account when people die?
it stays active inactively i suppose.
last log in.
last comment approved.
and we had coffee that day you stopped by my loft.
we drove aimlessly with ample intention.
we were on a mission.
food in the belly
food in the belly
my chipped vintage vamp nails
laughing and scattered and
we started into the stones.
i grabbed the angel from behind
your approval
and waited for the flash
you asked
'how long do you think it would be before you
found out i died, if i died?'
-immediately! i would know immediately.
insert giggle and i didn't ask back.
click.
i called that picture 'holding on for dear life.'
our little graveyard picnic.
and my pool party, you're funny little 80's swimsuit!
we promised not to throw eachother in the pool.
havaianas and your tattoos.
california. my green walls.
that three hour conversation on my drive to austin.
'you're never coming back to south carolina are you?'
-i might.
your dog drank from my grandmother's dish and
i reminded you, just as we would come to get him from my
loft, i would come.
i remember the letter you read.
your voice quivered and i just couldn't hear your sad anymore.
i wanted you to laugh again,
just for a second so i
changed the subject.
phone conversations get long.
you took your default picture down... i texted.
two weeks.
it took two weeks.
i found out today.
and i called your cell in disbelief.
disconnected.
cry.
you've disconnected.
suicide